I am so far gone

Seriously. It's ridiculous. It's best said in the lyrics to "Falling in Love Again":

It’s been so long now

Since I gave up my heart

I’ve kept it locked down

I don’t wanna get it harmed

So let me tell you now

I just want to be sure

That you won’t hurt me

Can you promise me that

Because I’m falling in love again

Ain’t nothing I can do

Falling in love again

Girl (boy) this time it’s with you

When I fall

It’s always the same

And I’m so tired

Of playing this game

you gotta tell me

if you're going to break my heart

cause I don't want to take a chance

and if it ain't true

all it's gonna be is nothing but a poor romance

so give me that promise to hold on

and I'll never let you go

I gotta have something to go on

oh let me know now

OK, so I'm not exactly falling in love quite yet, but I fall fast and hard as a rule. It's because I'm such a passionate person...I jump in with both feet every time. I try my hardest not to, but most times it's unavoidable. And I wouldn't have it any other way...my motto has always been 'Love like you've never been hurt'. Yes, I have been hurt many times before, but I don't hold that against anyone new in my life. They have had no part in that past hurt, so why let it dictate how I act towards them?

I digress...the point today is that I have met someone who has really thrown me for a loop. He is so unlike anyone I have ever been attracted to before...yet we get along better already than most guys I've dated for months at a time. He gets me, it seems.....we laugh our asses off every time we talk to each other, and we can talk for days. He's got a little bit of that badass side to him, which as you know I quite seem to like most of the time. He's super affectionate with me, as I am with him...and I cannot seem to get enough of him.

That scares me, quite frankly, because I hate that whole loss of control feeling, but what is the point of holding back. This might be the one shot that I get to really bowl him over, and I'm going for it, hell bent for leather (btw - does anyone know the meaning of that stupid saying?).

If I get hurt, I get hurt. I'll pick myself up, brush myself off, and learn from it, once again. If things work out, then it's cool...really cool.